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[29 Nov 2009|11:14am] |
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Hey there! Gonna go work in the evening again :/ .. I'm quite dreading it, always feel too scared to go to work. Just hoping that i would get used to the management and the people over there ASAP.  Life is full of contradictions,don't cha think so ? Was so wanting to work when school ended, but now i feel like going back to school! After all studying is still far more better than working!
Is working really tough, or is it that I THINK it's tough ??
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| Everyday is Sunday |
[15 Nov 2009|07:41pm] |
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Hello everyone. Ever since my last O-level paper ended, everyday seems to be a Sunday to me. Last Saturday marks the starting of my pig life. Before that, i felt real busy, and now, i'm real free. zzz. Some friends have found jobs, and are starting to work this coming week, and what about me? Just stay at home, watch anime, watch tv, do colouring, play piano, yadayada. =C Seriously speaking, i feel like studying again.
Tomorrow's Graduation night, and so many people not going to turn up! so disappointing leh. I'm going to wear nice nice, didn't invest my money on clothes though. haha, i did my nails today! i like it very very very much =D Prettier than me , really!
Eh.. really leh, i just feel damn bored everyday. For the past few months, i feel damn sian having to study everyday, but now, i wake up , i dono what to do.
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| Good things always come to an end. |
[08 Nov 2009|12:35pm] |
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Hey there!
Today's my last free Sunday, and i'm just a lil sad about it. 'Cuz this means that i don't have to be home alone on every sunday anymore! Piano lessons shall resume from next Sunday. Teehee.
And yes! i left 3 papers, 2 chinese, 1 Physics colouring, and 1 Chemistry colouring paper. Nice. Then i'd be free, for 5 months.That marks the starting of emotional days. ha, no, just kidding. But still, i'd miss studying in school, waking up early in the morning and preparing for school.Of course, my beloved 4E4, all the teachers and my friends since sec 1. Miss the way all of them look in the school's uniform.Truth to be known, i actually enjoy my entire 4 years in JYSS,thanks to all my friends =D and cheechers, not all though. teehee.. Oh, gonna cry soon..  Anyway, i think i need to buy myself a waterproof mascara. I don't want my make-up to smudge on Grad Nite. So embarrasing! *Auntie Lucy's move *
Oh yes, yesterday was my last study session at mac, with Mic and Javen (& mervyn). Heng i did not cry.Tried to, but it was very tough, so i dropped the idea. I'm sad because I CANNOT SEE MERVYN FOR A VERY LONG TIME! VERY SAD!
we didn't really study much, instead, before we left,we played Bingo and a Ang Moh game that Mic introduced to us. We play them on the serviettes. Very fun. I got keep leh, later i show you.
Sigh, it's like a routine already- every Saturday waking up early and going to mac to study, but all these will stop as soon as i finish my O levels.  Eh, this is genuine sadness leh. Really will miss all of u one leh.
I also will miss Kweestal and Farzana. Muacks!
*sobs*
Bingo Mervyn
Mic's game
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| Party Hats, Confettis, all ready? |
[04 Nov 2009|05:59pm] |
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Today i relak relak abit.
I've erased everything from mind, it shall remain as blank as paper until the day comes for me to pick up my crayon and start doodling it again. =D
Not too happy, not too sad, just normal.
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[14 Oct 2009|09:17pm] |
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HEE..
JIAWENHENG!
HAPPY BURSTDAY TO YOU! XD
CHICKEN IN A BRA!
TEEHEEHEE
I very good right? i don't have say you grow old today leh.
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[12 Oct 2009|05:36pm] |
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what we need is self-discipline. Conquer yourself,and everything shall fall nicely in place (=
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[07 Oct 2009|05:32pm] |
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要对自己好一点。。。
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| 空虚中的空虚。。。 |
[03 Oct 2009|07:13pm] |
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回头看看，原来自己变得那么多。。
说多也不多，说少也不少，
因为该改变的却没改变。
曾经拥有的，曾经失去的，都不怎么记得了。
给与自己的承诺，也不存在了。
为何无法抱着乐观的心态来看待事情？
为何不能大大方方得去接受挑战的来临？
为何不让自己的心胸更宽大？
犯过的错误为何不回改？
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| lost, and not (yet) found. |
[22 Sep 2009|10:05pm] |
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I've been searching for it , and i thought i found it.
But all these while, i was wrong.
Too wrong to be right.
I thought i have managed to get rid of those selfish thinking,
Yet i was wrong again.
Despite teaching myself to be optimistic again and again,
everything around me still seem so surreal.
I've lost all my directions.
I'm lost.
I've been searching, wondering, thinking
Lost and looking all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
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| As the day(s) draws nearer |
[13 Sep 2009|04:00pm] |
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Hey there !
I've been a good girl this week for not using the computer for around 3 days? I guess that's my new record.  43days to Olevels! Counting down makes me scared, but at the same time, reminds me to work even harder for every mile i am going.
Let me tell you something okay? I secretly hope that the invigilator will shake my hand and sing me a birthday song for my on the day i'm taking Chem and SS paper u know. I hope la, it's not necessarily a must or maybe allow the whole school to sing a birthday song for me, i also don't mind. hahaha. it's just a wish okay, don't give nasty comments leh, if not i show you my muscle , and throw you into the 'zhu long' , very embarrasing you know! :X
Another thing, i feel that the child who i've known for 12 years, is still growing up, but very slowly.. I think i'm growing faster then him, mentally, okay, maybe physically also. IT'S SO EMBARRASING YOU KNOW!
Every calamity is to be overcome by endurance
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| The amazing race- against time |
[07 Sep 2009|05:53pm] |
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49 more days to O-levels,
but i still feel very unprepared. Very. I know by this time i should be polishing on everything i've learnt, but actually, im still far from that.
真叫人担心。
sigh.
And i can't stop eating! i'm like growing side ways at a rate of 0.0001m/ hr!
Pimple Breakout also!
Rash Pox attack too!
i'm getting uglier .
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[22 Aug 2009|11:14pm] |
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I'm getting more and more impatient each day, and my tolerance for nonsense is limiting. Perhaps, this is due to the stress of studying, and i don't like it.
I feel as if i'm gonna fight a battle against my evil self.
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[12 Aug 2009|12:27pm] |
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Good day folks,
today is a good day, isn't it? I woke up for school early in the morning, to colour the ovals in OTAS sheet for an hour, and tada, back home :D Tmr's the same too, how lovely~
Recently, my mother kept saying that i'm smelly. She always call me Ah Mei at home, but these few days she added a 'Chou' word infront of my nickname, which is - Chou Ah Mei. Few days ago,she got scared by my sis, then she ended up calling my sis smelly too (e.g Chou XXXXXXXXXXXXX), and i have no idea why. She also like to play punch punch with me recently, and yesterday, when i was about to leave home for night study, she wanted to do a flying kick at me. So weird.
I love yesterday's night study. Intended to study emo-ly there alone,without anyone to talk to me so i could get the maximum concentration, but Mr.Kim ( God of Food), and Mr.Chew ( God of Physics) came to sit beside me. So i became very happy. Both of them were discussing bout past year's pure papers, while i ate my Char Kway Teow. Then came Hanwei and Han Quan. Han Quan took the GoF away, hence left the GoP and hanwei with me. I still feel veh contented, cos i solv-ed many kwaytions with the guidance from the GoP xD
Just now, i felt very retarded. All along i thought i missed the speech rally made by our PM, but then, i realized that what he said on National Day was the National Day Message which lasted for 15 mins only. Only when i made a visit to the CNA web, then i realized that the rally would be shown on 16th August. LOL .
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| I'm gonna burst. |
[10 Aug 2009|01:41pm] |
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I feel very . Maybe my brain really shrunk, and it's to the size of a camel's poo. I don't understand why i can't solve sums that i used to be able to. Why liddat. I wanna pass Amath tomorrow. But i don't see much faith in myself now :/
Hence,
I shall start sobbing now.
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| Count on me Singapore! |
[07 Aug 2009|05:03pm] |
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Good day citizens ! Remember to watch the speech made by LHL tmr okay? Remind me too , thankyou :D
today 's date is nice: 0708'09 , don't you think so ?
I'm glad that geography and physics' paper2 is over. They are like the hurdles on the track, but once u cross it, u will heave a sigh of relieve, but i clapped instead. Amath paper is on Tuesday, and from now, i have about 3.5days to prepare for it. You know what? I've never passed my Amath Exam before, NEVER! and it's always due to carelessness. Could have gotten a B4, but because of some mini mini error, i got a D7, so gek sim one right ?
I think my right thumb spoil. Bro said it was due to excessive texting of messages, which is like so true. It feels as if my thumb is induced with current, so yuckyuck. Now i scared to touch my phone, later all my ten fingy spoil , then die. :C
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| Let's feel the adrenaline gushing through my veins |
[29 Jul 2009|09:29pm] |
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Hi everyone.
I'm going to sit for my English Prelims tomorrow! Right now, i don't feel scared or nervous yet, and i hope that i don't feel the eerie feeling of being unprepared tomorrow. Because i'm prepared for it! haha, okay, crap. Yay, and i don't have to get up so early like a bird to prepare for school, cos paper starts at 1.30pm! Dope right ? I also think so.
Well, anyway, yesterday was one of the most tiring day i had, in all my tiring days. We had the Mock math exam,while pending for our turn to take the EL prelim oral. So evil. I reckon that almost more than half the class didn't take the mock exam seriously. Especially me. hehheh. Just don't feel like persevering, and Kelvin kept telling me to skip each question. And yes, i did.
Then, when i got home, i had to prepare for tuition, which last for 2 hours. Hence, after tuition, i felt like a piece of wobbly jelly, me was really tired X 10 to the power of infinity.
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[17 Jul 2009|08:39pm] |
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You know what's a Mock Exam ?
It's an exam when teachers tell you that you're gonna have it, but they don't give it to you. Hence, it's called a Mock Exam .
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[14 Jul 2009|12:17am] |
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Hello. I'm gonna type this quickly and get into bed hopefully by 15mins .
So here it goes,
I don't know why, i just feel very irritated when people start asking me questions which i don't wish to answer. And the questions are very practical , like ' what you doing now ? ' . i just dont feel like answering them, and right after, i just get super irritated. So damn ridiculous , i know.
Next, i feel that i should really discipline myself more. It's like i have an angel and a devil in me , you see. The angel's often appear when i bathe, telling me that i should start my revision now, but when i get out of the bathroom, the devil defeated my angel, and i end up wasting time in my room. It's like a vicious cycle, it keeps continuing non-stop :C I know i should stop all these, even conquer procrastination, but it's really tough .
Today, Miss lin brought our class to com lab so that some of them can apply for DPA . I was almost tempted to do so, but i did not know what to write, and i'm not very keen to apply too, hence i just sat there and play some cute games. But the thing is, now that there's so many people applying for it to secure a place for themselves, i feel that i should gear myself up and start my revision full force cuz prelims is in 2 weeks+ time. Ah-ha, there it goes again, the angel appears now, and tmr, the devil comes, and i can't gurantee myself that i would study . Sounds like i have split -personality right? lol..
k, i'm hungry.
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